The Source of Anxiety
It has been nearly two years since someone came to me and said, “I think you have a lot of anxiety and you don’t even know it.” I smiled and pridefully thought to myself: “What in the world is she talking about? I don’t have anxiety.” Nobody had ever suggested such a thing to me. I committed to prayerfully considering her concerns. About a month later, the elders of our church granted me an emergency sabbatical. She was right on both counts. I was indeed experiencing a significant amount of anxiety, and I didn’t even know it.
I discovered that my anxiety had not been affecting me only. Because it influenced the way I interacted with others, it had negatively affected members of our staff to varying degrees. I spent a lot of time apologizing to staff members and asking for forgiveness. Everyone was gracious. I’ll never forget that. As my sabbatical came to an end, I no longer questioned whether I had anxiety. Instead, I began to ask a very important question: “Where is my anxiety coming from?”